“My mistakes do happen on a grand scale and very public level. They’re humiliating, embarrassing. But if nothing bad happens to you, you’ll just continue to act ridiculous.”
— Christian Slater, USA Today, December 14, 1997
Sometimes, I have too much going on in my brain to stick to one or two topics, or even tie a bunch of ideas together to equal one main topic. So usually, I just keep my fingers to myself and wait for a better time to write. But today, I’m letting go and allowing for a completely different blog experience.
The past few hours, I’ve spent studying “Integrating anatomy and treatment,” a book to further prepare massage therapists for the national exam. The question of the year seems to be: “when will you be finished?” The 600 hours at massage school have left me scratching my head; I’ll say the school was mediocre at tying everything together & just leave it at that. So now it’s hours and hours of self-study, which is alright by me, just time consuming.
I am 29. The clock is no longer ticking; a resounding pounding radiates through my very core. The number ’30’ doesn’t bother me so much; I don’t believe the 20s are the ‘best time of ones life.” (Unless they are now married w/ kids.)
No, for me, the 20s were a time for colossal screw-ups.
- 75% of my relationships were abusive in one way or another.
- I dated but had no clue what I wanted from a relationship.
- My job was 10+ years of dead-end boredom (save for a few years of international work) ; the workload increased but my salary barely budged.
- I went at least $15,000 in credit card debt, w/ nothing to show for it.
- I have no real estate.
- When I screwed up, I did it in a big way (like getting arrested), and everyone found out about it. I can only imagine what my god-fearing extended family truly thinks of me. hehe.
Well isnt that a heart-warming list?
But here’s the good thing: the 30s will BE SO MUCH BETTER. The list of grievances serves as concrete insurance. I’ve learned a lot from it:
- I know what behavior I will and will not accept from friends and relationships.
- I learned how important it is to end dysfunctional relationships.
- I realized that a desk job is not for me, and what type of career is right for me.
- I developed keen communication skills and sharp intuitive perception
- I learned credit cards are more dangerous than automobiles or guns
And that’s just the cliff notes.