Since I’m living for us both, a lot of what I do is because of you. It’s the only way I can. You always looked out for me and I hope I won’t let you down now, because I know you’re watching.
You always kept your nails painted and looking nice, so this summer has featured a plethora of colors rather than my usual bare, unmanicured hands. Greens! Blue! Pink! Reds! Orange! I even got some nail pens and drew designs.
I’ve been writing more than ever. You appreciated my work. I didnt understand how much until I look back at the 11 years we were best friends.
You told me I’d need to let some people go out of my life. I did that too. I’m too heartbroken missing you, it was easy letting go of the living toxic people. You…you stay with me.
I keep so busy now. There’s so much to do, and so little time to waste on my chronic negative emotions/moods. You taught me so much. I hope you are happy now, where you are. I can’t wait to see you when I kick the bucket one of these days.