The Sunday Night Shitshow

  I took this picture in San Diego  San Diego San Diego…. Life back home in DC is giving me the blues.  Tomorrow, start time is 8am so that means I have to wake up around 6. Wtf.  So the weekly Sunday Night Bluesapalooza is in rare form.  It’s like Counting Crowes hit the stage…

How to Stop Worrying!

I come from a long line of worrywarts.  My cousin describes this nervous depression as “analysis paralysis,” and the entire side of my mom’s family suffers from this counterproductive affliction. Trust me.  It sucks!  I spend so much time worrying.  When I can’t worry myself into a completed status on one issue,  I just switch…

Anxiety

Things that stress me out: *Getting out of bed. *Mandatory attendance:Of anything, going to work included. *The Internet:Yeah, I said it. I never realized it, but being online stresses me out, even though it’s one of the first places I go when I’m stressed. Hmm. *My family—I try to make life easier for those I…

From a Reader

TO:  79sparrows@gmail.com Date:  09/24/10 Hey Sparrows, I used to read your Xanga page when you blogged over there back when it was cool.  My sister told me you blog here now,  and to be honest I didnt know if I would read it.  No offense but your stuff used to depress the hell out of…

Free Advice: Monkey on My Back

 “All I wanted was to control you, myself and everything else.”– Quote on addiction To: 79sparrows@gmail.com I’m 32/f , residing in Pekin, Illinois.  Wouldn’t mind hearing your take on this: I’ve felt like shit ever since I can remember.  Amongst depression/anxiety, I also have struggled with addiction.  The past month has been the worst.  I’m…

Indroducing: Sexy Sundays

Hosted by:  79sparrows “Sunday, Bloody Sunday” in the words of Bono.    The problem with Sunday, is although it is  technically is part of the ‘weekend,’ it also prefaces Monday.   It is that part of the day that my mind wanders to ‘what will I be walking into tomorrow?’   It’s not like I work for Donald…

Alive

I wrote this poem several years ago.  It speaks volumes of  the mental state that year.  Are you breaking out Or are you checkin out Self destruction/Is passion misdirected Thats what its all about My walk’s uphill from here on out Energy burning inside of me I’ve got doubts/Tryin’ to let it out Drowning in…

Happy (P)ILLs

“If you’re finding life to be the one thing that’s trying to kill you, I want you to stay alive to rise with the sun and fight back.” –Henry Rollins It’s been a dramatic 2 weeks. I snapped. I quit Chantix. I felt like crap the entire 2 1/2 weeks I was on it. Just…

stress

“What does he do?”  “Oh, he’s lots of different stuff.”  “Like what?”  “He’s an artist.”  “He’s unemployed?”  *silence*  “Yeah.”  –actual conversation between Simone and I, 2006 I’ve always aspired to be a writer; I’ve written for enjoyment since elementary school.  I love it, plus I’m good at it.   Most of all:   writing is safe.  There’s nobody…