My Very Worst Date

After much encouragement to try an online dating service, I decided to go the el cheapo route and signed up for Plenty of Fish. My inbox was immediately bombarded with messages, most consisting of one or two incoherent sentences. One gentleman caller stood out from the rest, and after communicating for a few months, I…

the Real thing

My love for you is pure, 100%.  This is feeling is completely new to me.    It is effortless, it is easy.  No issue unspoken, no games.  I am an addict, but you are not a drug.  And at last, the love that has been so elusive is present and understated.  I’m glad there are no…

After the “friends with benefits” are Gone

It has been 5 months or so since I engaged in sexytimes.   I like sex.  Just not so much that I’ll associate with the men with whom I used to have sexual relations.   These men were not “boyfriends,” just that old cliché’  known as  “friends with benefits.”  During my 20s, these faux relationships seemed worth it, since I didnt…

A peice by Henry Rollins

I look at pictures of you because I am afraid that you would notice me staring in real life.  I looked at your pictures today for countless minutes.  It is closer than I’ll ever get to you for real.  I felt like I was looking at a captured animal at a safe distance.  If you…

Life Continues

That pretty much says it all doesnt it? I spent the day spring cleaning. It feels good to let go of crap. Why do I wait so long to remember this absolute fact? It’s all so symbolic of the past self-induced mental anguish I put myself through instead of letting go of people and things…

Fabulous on the Inside

Think of “brain drain” as stream-of-concious thinking, a big blurb lacking organized thoughts. (sidenote: “Brain Drain” is a creative exercise for writers, found in the book “The Artist’s Way” by Julia Cameron.) It’s really just dumping the trash out of my head. I do mine in a public medium because I’m feeling blog-y. I still…

The opposite of “Roomates waiting for Death.”

Waiting for you For once, it’s understood the empty space has a name Tonight, it’s a billboard: HUMAN COMPANIONSHIP? To be not alone, for an extended period of time. With someone whom’s company I truly enjoy? The fantasy. Well, I imagine We meet, at some random occasion Before you know it We’ll be in bed…

the getaway

Do you want to go away together?   Someplace by the water; it’s off-season right now and anywhere seaside is as good as deserted.   We could shack up for half-off, those stale hotel rooms on Coastal Highway are like  5-star suites when you just want to get away.   It is March now and this month tends to drag on. …